I'll never
f o r g e t
that night
.
That night
.
It started out great
laughs
,
fun
,
and games
.
Most everyone likes
that
,
no
?
I do
.
Then it turned
around
when we went
to our
dorm
;
not so
great
.
I was talking
about art
to
you
.
I'll never forget those
six
times
;
maybe seven
;
maybe three
;
that those words
,
those bloody
horrid
words
came out of
your
mouth
.
I d o n t
c a r e
!
You would
scream
.
<I don't
care/>
Those words
affected
me
.
I've now come to
realize
how much you all
don't care
about
m e
.
That is
<<<<<un//for geta=ble>>>>>
.

I don't know why this affected me so much. I guess I just now realize the obvious truth. It was there. Oh, it was there. But only in a whisper. It turned into a cry. A whisper, to a cry... I understand.

Am I that bad? Be honest... ;_________;

I thought I was outgrowing being an annoying little fuck.

I'm glad I have friends on the net. You all make me feel so good about myself. I love you all for it. So much, that it makes me want to cry. I wish you all were here with me. But I guess that's not much of a possibilty, eh?

'I don't care.' Those words. They hurt. So bad. I get them a lot. Either I should shut up, or they should NOT LISTEN. Well, there's an idea. *shiftyeyes*

Christ, I love you all. I'm sorry about my rant, though... B:< >

comfortme. T___T <3

That felt pretty good. So does shedding tears...